sweet-poo

M upset 2day or shd I say m disturb or best word is to say m feeling uneasy 2day…don’t know xactly wat to say?? M so confused that I m not getting correct words to write down my feelings. Something is making me uneasy, uncomfortable, painful 2day. M in office rt-now but im feeling like m not in office…sometime I wish to talk with someone to avoid this n sometimes I want to be alone….
M feeling like I shd stare at something n think abt some happenings in my life…I think I want some space for myself..i shd think abt myself….don’t know wat to do???where to go??

Ohhh..god help me to over come frm this….ppl say that m a gud thinkeerr 2day itself Nitin scrapped me in orkut saying the same…but this thinking sometimes stops ur life, ur day-to-day work..

Somethng which I can say continuously going on my mind or disturbing me is:

Why ppl drink a lot? Cann’t we totally blocked this drinking. So that none of the family will suffer. Why boys think that if they smoke they r The-MAN….its so shame that after having drink our frds speak out such a crap things..In my office party (which was held a day before yesterday) I had seen few ppl ..n after seeing the behaviors of boys after they r drunk I decided that Yes..I hate drinking…n ppl shd start hating it…I don’t understand why this poor boys don’t understand the truth of life n why they over-drunk themselves n always end up by ending/craking few relations..they loose their frd, the respect (I guess so)…the care..n don’t know wat more..n that too such an educated ppl in such a nice corporate environment…r they loosers??? I don’t know wat im writing but truly this is wat …is going on in my mind

I watched the movie Corporate n truly I decided that m not going to have cold-drinks from now. M going to avoid it totally. I robustly believe in changing ourselves instead of changing the whole world. I concluded that yes if I can try its easy to avoid cold-drinks n go ahead with juice so that I can profit those poor juice maker instead of rich corporate businessman

This type of movies really makes me think a lot. When I was out of cinema hall I wished to think abt the matter of the movie. But since my frd Shiv was with me I avoided otherwise boys generally think that girls r soooo stupid soo senti….that they take this movies so sincerely….but yes whenever I watch ny movie…. it impact me. atleast I can say I try to get some gud pts from it….my mind says “wat’s wrong in it….”

I don’t know wat I m going to do for the rest of the day…but yes…I concluded that m disturb person…at times I had taken very gud decision for me, for my frds, at times I had shown my confidence well enough, at times I helped my frds a lot…but rt-now…m finding out myself helpless…n at last I don’t know why m writing it in my blog….2day im doing something AJIB…..m behaving very rudely with my frds (I guess..so)…m missing my family also that can be one of the reason of my uneasyness…well m a gud girls so god will help me soon…bye all my readers...

This one I want to dedicate to one of the gr8 relationship I ever had in my life with my frd called Viru…plp says she changed me lot.. well I can say the best is, there was something hidden in me which I got 2 know with her aid..:)

We share lots of thinking in common. It always happened to us that we say the same word or sentence for a situation…

We both agree that there shd not be ny expectation in frdship n this is the key of our frdship……if u expect something it indicates u have some motive for frdship…so u’ll start asking ur frd for the same or expecting something from them….me n viru..we never expected nything from each other..i hardly give her company for lunch, snaks or nything..but yes..if I’m @ her desk or vice-versa n say waana go out for nariyal pani…we always there to give company…we hardly get time for each other but yeah whenever we r together we feel like very oldy frds.

The word frequency is really extremely important in frdship…I realize this…we don’t have frdship like “Made for each other” but yes….”always there for each other”

Few words she said to me …which I always bear in mind n which I wanted to pull together somewhere….

Yaar….tere bahut yaad aa rahi

Beeee…tu bahut bewakuf hai

Viru (5/5/2006 3:18:50 PM): bas abhi milne ka man kar raha mera

Viru (5/5/2006 3:23:49 PM): achi hai tu bahot

Viru (5/30/2006 3:36:46 PM): mujhe teri bahot yad aa rahi

Viru (5/30/2006 3:13:58 PM): poo - the philosopher

Viru (5/30/2006 3:20:04 PM): i luv u lot dear

N one n only one..baar baar ye kehna… “ samza naa”

U know wat when I was departing frm Nagpur we talked to each other like….Areee..hum to ek dusare ko phone bhi nahi karege… hum dono bahut hi bekaar hai… this shows we never expected nything from each other not even a single phone call

The way she used to come to me n say aree yaar tu jaa rahi hai aur mein kitne bewakuf hu tuze kuch nahi de rahi….I love this….so simple so pure so touchy so clean..… wat else I need yaar….

Well the best saying that suited to our frdship is

“The best kind of a frd is one… 

With whom you sit on a bench saying nothing &..

When u get up n go,

U feel u have best conversation of ur life”

Whenever I read this it reminds me of Viru only..well just to make me @ ease in this new company n feel….that I too have frds I had one photo-frame of both of us @ my desk which… she only gifted me with lots of sweat…

Now she got married. I think for a moment that she will chng now but it doesn’t hurt me..bcoz I don’t expect nything from her..watever she is like… she is to me…

 

Well feeling gr8 joined IBM, one of the biggest MNC and everyone’s dream company. I remembered when we were doing engg. everyone amg us dreamed for company like IBM..

 

I got my seat the very first day. There is something different here:- m talking abt keyboards & chairs. Even after so many days m not very comfortable with them.  One more thng I saw “Patent Pending” word written over that keyboard, well I hardly understand wat it means n don’t want to know that..No doubt  they r of gud quality(its IBM after all MNC..well.. status to maintained karna padega naa!!!). Well just to adjust my chair for now I broken one chair & wow When I saw it after passing one weekend I got a New chair….hey good yaar I got new chair even without firing ny complain.

 

Well speciality (Identity) of my new manager is that u’ll always find him with a cup of coffee which IBM provide to every employee…just to make sure that ppl shd not waste paper cups. I alwys wanted to know that ….Wo cup mein coffee hoti hai ya nahi…But I don’t dare to be ..he is my manager after all. My team mates always chatter with each other in Marathi don’t know yaar wat they say…I hardly understand something..ohhh god beware me from this Marathi boys n girls…m helpless…”My Bad”..born n bought up in Maharashtra n I hardly talk in Marathi…

 

Our Guidelines says us not to wear jeans n unformal dresses I hardly understand wat to do…Cotton suites are hectic to manage and formal dress need ironing everytime u wear it…Well shd I charge my company for iron n washing???well yes..why not ?but…they had not given me ny such option…We had a large garden full of greenery (specially this time) –the most likely/lively part in our premises….And our server lab is full of black boxes only J ..it has m/c with almost every flavors of Unix…Its very cold in the server room always doono why?? I guess we had a fan in m/c itself. Well ppl had to carry coffee/tea, if they want to come back alive from server room…n in order to work there for long, better to take few more cups of tea….

 

M looser yaar -> On the very first day gotta know that no free lunches :(, no snaks :(. I cried a whole week for the same….Well ok, My New package made me feel happy n i was ready to pay for lunch..But for the first day we got free lunch token from IBM.

Guess wat happen then...
We standed on the very long queue n as its my turn now....n n n....The Canteen manager refused our free token by arguing with us that IBM had lots of dues already :( ??? Is that our mistake??

Well then our hr-person (a very sweet lady) talked with canteen manager..I shd better say she had a quarrel with that person and then we r allowed to Eat..well Cheers to Girl !!!…they can Fight for nything J