sweet-poo

Everybody suffer from sleepless nights some or d other day/time. I was wide awake so many hours in my bedtime even though I was comfortable in bed. Suddenly I thought Why So????? Is this bcoz of work load? discomfort?? Heavy meal?. Answer came NOOO!!! I’ve been a good sleeper always, I can sleep for long long hours. Its my favorite time pass.  

 I don’t want to get out of my bed so I continued relaxing. and yeahhhhh the problem presented itself. My mind started going in the train of thoughts. Stopped @ some station to consolidate them and make sense. Restless, I slide out of my bed and headed for the my laptop. Connected it to internet and addressed few e-mails.

 Sleepless nights are not struggle for me. But why r they disturbing me? Yesterday night was memorable or I can better say impressive. I was thinking abt smthing that even I don’t know what. I was speechless, motionless or better I shd say helpless for anything.

 I’m unable to find a place to spell out whatever is in my mind, to shout on things which I don’t like, to laugh loudly if I want. Actually speaking I was trying to make myself more mature, well dressed, well natured, taking care of everbody now a days. So I do things that I like only when I am alone. Because somehow I got a surrounding where I can’t be as I’m. I don’t want to blame anybody for all this. Its me and my crazy mind only. You have to believe this.

 One example I love to watch movie but my parents are against this, well don’t ask me the reason. It is like that only. So I concluded something which I’m going to call as I learned it from my experience. I realized one thing that people (almost everybody) says they love freedom and they give freedom to their close-one’s related to them but actually its nothing like that. I heard most of my educated friends saying this. In actually, I noticed it that they mind it. Like for example all my love one mentioned me that Go and explore whereever u want to go. But if I plan all alone and tell them that I’m going to Bangalore alone or with some friends. Either they are going to stop me or going to mind it. When a father says to his 10 months child go and walk alone, fall down and again get up go…..He mean it!!! This is actual freedom where father is giving him to make mistakes and learn plus observing him to protect him from danger.

 So question is sleepless nights are gud or bad. For me it gives me time to do some meditation, time to talk to myself, ask ourself…wat am doing and where I’m going in my life. Is this what I expected from my life!!. Still my favorite time pass is sleeping, its impossible for me to be awake very late. Well gud or bad I should be thankful to my sleepless nights, because with it, an article came to my blog life.