sweet-poo

Everytime, everyday life really teaches u something.  Its just on us to take it positively and understand d deep meaning within it. When I see few married couples  in my company, I feel they r made for each other bcoz they share a common thinking, habits and so many things literally matches. I started believing that u have to marry a peron who is like u. Who resembles u on everything or atleast most things. Poonam is a girl who learned a lot frm her past and surroundings. And whenever I learn smthing I start thinking its true, life is like this. One day I will also meet a guy who will resemble me and that day I will by heart will say yes to him.

Y d hell I think like that. This life’s practicality had disappointed a little innocent girl within me. I got betray so many times, but still I trust people. My frnds ask me to make list for shopping and then when we go for shopping they don’t even care abt my stuff. But I still keep my faith on them.  My frnds will ask me to order me some dish and when I order they will change my order. I still have faith on them.  y ? I don’t understand that d person who don’t give importance to ur thoughts ur decision shd not matter to u actually. Once again I feel like..whenever life wants to teach me smthing, I had hard time learning it.

Smtime I just feel I lost complete confidence on myself bcoz I still trust ppl who don’t deserve to be. I knw I sound like a confused personality but I am not. Right now I am a well mixture of diff thoughts. How shd u start believing sm1. Whats d criteria. Wat u do when sm1 broke ur believe. Its just stupid enough,  to wait for a guy who is like u. No1 in d earth can be like Poonam or ny1 for that sake. Every1 has a unique solu.  Having a trust on sm1 finally pays u off. And it really happens. I just hate trust and all this kind of words now. I have seen ppl don’t even talk to themselves truly then forget abt others.  Now this girl made her mind…y to trust ppl and hurt urself. So better be away frm this feeling and emotions and be happy in life.

 Life looks like a real challenge to me now. Am a simple girl that doesn’t mean, all around u r simple. Ppl r complex and they r like tat. Y to expect ppl to be like u when I can’t be like them. Too much now..feeling sleepy..shd sleep..another challenging day will obviously ging to wake me up and I have to tackle every relation so beter be ready for it when I can’t run away frm this. Better to face eveythng . So here Poonam wishes gud nit to herself and pray God for no dreams 2day.

The other day I got a Kaya clinic's free coupon from reliance mart. I heard abt Kaya and it z very near to my house. I thught worth giving a try. Big banners of Kaya’s and its way of expressing the beauty treatment always attracted me. I had this in mind that I will meet some gud english speaking ppl ther nd they r going to treat me with a smiling face, even if i do say them that ur treatment z very expensive..

I always get exicted with this big sallons or I shd call it skin clinic in ther terms. and d reason is they really treat u very nicely. I get chance to listen words like Mam, dear, too much of please and sorries.So one fine day, I decided that its worth visiting for this free coupons atleast. i shd give kaya a chance to treat my skin .I was greeted by a very preety girl ther, she is very soft spoken, I like ppl who r gud when they open ther mouth. She asked me… do I want to try kaya drink or want plain water???. and I always hurry to say NO and I rejected with a thanku to them for asking me. She said to me "mam u look tired, u sure u dont want water"

I hate this, y she need to say this that i look tired. well this time I said yes and asked for ther special apple kaya juice. Wanted to see if that gives me refreshing look. Internally my mind calculated that its  fruit juice so its gonna be sweet and ofcourse more than bearable. But didnt remind me that beer and alcohols r also fruit extract and they don’t taste sweet. Same with kaya apple drink. Yuk..yuk…I cant drink it..it smell horrible, tastes more horrible..i don’t mind having vodka instead to refresh myself :-p. I hate it. I will never gonna try it..give me sm breezer atleast!!!

Finally she scheduled my appointment on one fine wednesday evening. I added an appointment into my Blackberry device. they all looked @ me as I am a very techiee girl. one asked me do u want appointment card and he himself said smiling ki ohh u using blackbeery u dont need it. I didnt get wat he was saying. Calendar r ther in simple nokia set too….watever…But truely speaking I ve a habit of missing  appts..I was absent in last 2 conf cal of my office as I was busy chit chatting with my mom. J.  So if i have to attend smthing I have to add it to my calendar otherwise  I bet I am going to miss it

Yesterday I was @ kaya clinic @ 5pm. All greeted me and then said that they r arranging room for my treatment. Asked me to wait for a while. A boy called me mam room is ready lets start with ur treatment. I went ahead. He started putting napkken to cover my throat. And then my mind started fighting with me…god…this boy z going to do my treatment…save me d horrow..i never go to unisex parlour..smhow I am not yet confertable with tat… I started feeling uncomfortable. He noticed that I am wearing a gold chain. Thank god to that chain. He asked me r u taking this session for face only or u want to cover neck too. Because then..bla bla…this bla bla..frustated me more …I said no. I have this session for face only, giving a weird look. Well it was nt his fault.  Then he cleaned my face with a cotton. Applied their kaya specific solution and then said to me that mam “I am going to neutralize it plz mum ur lips mam”…I wanted to say him…hey boy u ve no rights 2 talk abt my lips.they still obey my order…. But I noded my head. He started sprinking water hence I ve to closed my lips. Once he is done he asked me to relax. I don’t know wat he mean so I was quite. How can I be relaxed in a room where a stranger guy is doing my makeup. I hate this…

Now he says “Mam close ur eyes as I am very near to ur eyes. “ Wat d f*** z this. Y shd I close my eyes, if he is near.  He z not my BF or so.  He was really giving me hard time…my mind was continuously alerting me..Can’t he just put it in better way that close ur eyes so that I can clean nearby areas.

Well while cming back frm Kaya…I was just laughing @ myself and d situations…

You should not love everyone

I don’t know how ppl in this world can love everyone. No1 in ur hit list, that’s just not good enough. Wat I mean is that to live happily and healthy u shd hate someone. And I believe that in ur office too, u shd ve smone u hate. U hate her/his promotion, u njoy is she/he does sm mistake. But plz don’t involve urself in ny1’s distruction, I don’t mean that yet. J

In my office I hate a girl, and its not like tat every time I pray for her bad. Its just tat I hate d way she talk, she work. And d fact that she just want to rule ppl, while instead of managing ppl. I mean wats fun in ur life if u love everyone. If u njoy every1’s best part. Ther shd be some moment in life when u r upsaid not bcoz smthng bad happens to u. its just bcoz smthing gud happened to him/her.

Really one shd experience this. I tried this in my life and I feel gud. It really gives me damn gud feeling. And sad too..but no harn…am not d one who will suicide just bcoz sm1 got smthng best in his life. Am way beyond that. Sm1 says that I am very practicle..he he…not doing suicide or not locking urslef in ur room doesn’t mean u r practical. I remember d person I hate got sm gud news and I was upset that day…even I felt like crying, y not me. Am so dedicated so gud. But u r gud doesn’t mean gud things r only on ur way. Life has all gud and bad. I got to knw this very recently. So ther z sm1 in my office, he loves every1…ha ha funny for me..not possible…its just he is making fool to himself that he loves every1 or if its really true, so poor He..he shd hate sm1. I told him to hate sm1. let ur mind, heart be open to hate sm1’a habit, sm1’s speech, sm1’s face or just sm1’s presence. Be open yaar. Life ek baar hi milti hai..lets in this one time hate sm1. I am sure I don’t need to say love sm1, that is smthing every1 falls in life one time.